Friday, 17 March 2017

Let's Talk About: A Life Update

First off, I just want to apologise for this post going up a day late! Yesterday was absolutely manic, well the past week or so has been. I've been completely inundated by life and was not in the right mindset to write this so Laura and I decided it would be best for both of us to post a day late. We are working on a really fun post too, its just taking so much longer to write than we thought it would, so keep an eye out for that.

So the last Let's Talk About post that I posted I spoke about being faced with life changing decisions but said that I couldn't talk about them. Since then I have made one of the huge decisions so I can talk about it so I thought I would update you all.

I have moved back home!!! 

So as you know for the past 18 months I have been living in Cambridge. I've not been happy whilst I have been there, I've been faced with so many challenging things that have really taken their toll on me, things that I'm not ready to talk about now but I may do in the future. So a few weeks ago I made the decision to move back home. It wasn't an easy decision to make, I love Cambridge so so much and it will forever hold a special place in my heart but it wasn't the right place for me to be at this point in my life. It is 90 miles away from my family home and I am such a home bird that I have been stupidly home sick the past month or so. 

There are so many more opportunities for me back at home, I've been out working how many days which has been lovely. I went to rehearsals for the show that my mom is in and caught up with everyone that I haven't seen in months. It is just so so nice to be back at home where I am happy. I didn't massively have a social life in Cambridge, I spent a lot of my time hauled up in my room alone and I think that is one of the main reasons I needed to get out, I was falling into the same routines and the same old boring loop and I hate that! I've really been needing some spontaneity so coming back home definitely was the best decision have made!

I thought I would share with you a few little tips on how to make these big decisions life throws our way, things that have been an absolute god send to me the past few weeks!
  • Speak to other people and ask their opinions. This is something that has really helped me, the final decision is mine but hearing what other people have to say can make you see it in a different light! I spoke to my mom, Laura and Sam and they all agreed with me that moving back home would be my best option and it was very reassuring knowing there were people fighting my corner. 
  • Don't let the worry of what people will think change your decision, do what is best for you. I was really worried that people would be disappointed with me for moving back home or my housemates were going to be really upset because I was moving out but realistically I wasn't happy there so I needed to do what was best for me and that was moving back home. It was a case of putting myself first and not everybody else, like I normally do. I'm a very selfless person so I do favour everyone else over myself sometimes you've got to say no, I need to think about me.
  • Weigh up the pros and cons for each decision. There are going to be positives and negatives of every situation you are faced with. For me my biggest thing was if I came home I would be happy and have less freedom but if I stayed in Cambridge I would have been unhappy and pretty much all the freedom in the world, this was my deciding factor. I had to weigh up which was more important, my happiness or my freedom. My happiness trumped out my freedom by a long shot!
I don't in any way regret my decision, it was 100% the best thing I have done for myself in a long time. I think sometimes the hardest decision to make is the best one, it has broke my heart moving out of a lovely house and the most beautiful city, but I know I'll be back! I can hand on heart say Cambridge is one of my favourite places and I know I will always find my way back to it. I have had some of my favourite times in the past 18 months but also some of my worst and it was time to start a new chapter. 

Cambridge, you have been wonderful, until next time!

Much love as always!!


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